I'm freezing my arse off here almost everyday! Never did I realise that I actually HATE the wind so much! Oh well, what causes the cold is the wind isn't it!

Anyhow, I'm back here in Geelong and I'm living like a nerd here, ha! Been reading a lot including all the gossip magazines and also novels, including the one which bf bought for me at Borders. But um, I've only finished reading the magazines. As for the novels, I'm only done with less than a quarter. I think I'm gonna continue after going to Coles later with my aunt for some grocery shopping. Bf requests a cake specially baked by me for him, and he wants it the next time he sees me so... I'll TRY. & he bloody likes caramel mud cake instead of other cakes and my aunt just told me:

"Yan.. It's cheaper to buy the whole mud cake than baking it because the ingredients are gonna be more expensive than it."

Errr.. Should I or should I not? But I know he's gonna complain, saying that I don't pamper him enough and all. Gah! What a baby!

French class starts only on the 18th of August, that means another 2 weeks of freelancing! I've spent the past fortnight quite unproductively but eh, I've already wasted a few months before this so what am I to complain man. But yeah, gap year isn't really that fun xept that I've been reading friends' blogs describing how busy they frigging are, assignments and projects piled up and all. Should I be feeling lucky now? Gonna suffer like hell when college starts for me anyway, rawr. Better not talk about this, frigging ruins my mood.

I wanna go to Melb cityyyyy.. Bf's there, what to do.. Dang, bloody love sick.

Might catch up with another match of football on Friday night, wheee~ And Nick the cousin will be back from Sydney on Friday as well. Ok...

[Just realised that I only update the blog when I'm being uneventful! Pretty normal ain't it? Cause when you're busy, blog is the last thing in mind.. ]

Okay, so I did not succeed in baking a cake cause I bought one at the supermarket yesterday. Oh well..

Just tried on my uncle's HP Photosmart 3110 All-in-one printer and it's awesomeee! That was random. I have nothing much to do here and maybe I should just take a train down to Melb later. Bf's still in Uni though.. Ring his mum up? No key to enter apartment =( Will work things out later.

The sun is shining brightly outside but the temperature just won't go any higher. Man.. my skin's getting so dry now and dandruff is already starting to attack my head. I've been reading and reading because that's prolly the most entertaining entertainment which I can find so far. Geelong is not a boring place, but the trouble is my aunt won't let me drive here because my license isn't even one month old. I don't think I can be bothered to walk all the way to the bus stop and get on a bus and go to the town ALONE. Bf came over on Monday and we spent a good time at the town. See, big cities aren't always the best =P Ok so back to the topic, Melb is so much more convenient because the place which I stay there is right on Bourke St, the street which leads to the city of Melb. What's better's that the tram station's just right in front of the main entrance of City Point, the apartment. And then I can go walk around the city and all, ahh. Or maybe.. follow bf for lectures.. Watch football at the stadium or something. I hope the Picasso thing isn't off yet, held in the art gallery. I wanna go!! Bf is so mean, he's been procrastinating and when this artsy event is over he's gonna get it! Been checking out for some orchestra and opera events and I SOOO WANNA GO MAN. Of course, they cost a bomb. Depends actually.. and mehh, and when I was hinting my bf all he said was:

"I can bring you to my uni, there're many performances there, heh. "

"Why Uni..? Might as well go to those opera house or something.."

"Because the tickets for Uni's shows are only 20 dollars and below lah! haha!"

"Idiot.."

Didn't even wanna talk to him already.

But um, I'm still gonna go watch.

So.. It's already 12.38pm. Ahhh, I'm so dang undecisive. Missing that nerd to bits and yet feel like staying in Geelong for another day. I wish I could split into two now (On 2nd thought.. not really. That would be scary.)

Randomness part II - I had a hella healthy breakfast this morning! Ok so I was searching for food as usual from the fridge (Before I came here my dumbass cousin actually told my aunt: "Yan's coming? Remember to lock up the fridge! Haha!" Pffffttt...  He has a point, though.) I heated up some leftover rice from last night and I thought there would be some chicken wings left in the fridge but oh noooo~ NOTHING~! OK, nvm, at least there'd be the infamous 'Gan Lan Cai' (olive vegetables in a bottle which's my all time favourite) but after looking up and down I still couldn't find any! Damn! That was pretty depressing..

At last, guess what I had? KimChi!! The Korean dish! Cabbage and some veggie soaked with some sourly spicy sauce. It was cold and I didn't heat that up because.. I don't know? And then I struggled with my breakfast already. I had rice + veggie, no meat! I rarely eat rice wihout meat! So this meal might consider normal to some of you but mehh, not me. That was my definiton of healthy breakfast. Gaha.

Of course I wasn't satisfied righttt? So I made beef lasagne after that haha! I didn't exactly make it, it was the instant one which aunt bought from Target yesterday. That's me.. lunch?

Since I'm talking about food now, lemme just write this out as well because I have so much time. On Tuesday night we decided to go for steamboat. Bf's mum suggested cause I wanted to have that last Saturday and then the idea was cancelled because there were too many dishes at home. Aww, she loves me~  okok.. So we went to this restaurant called Peking Steamboat or something like that along Russell st. And boy.. It was packed with people! Mostly students! And there were only 3 people working there. THREE. Nvm that. The boss came and took our order, everyone was super hungry I guess. Waited and waited.. Geez, it took more than 20 minutes and only the sauce was served! Soup came afterwards and it took ages for the meat and veggie to come. I was like, Wtf? They didn't even have to cook so what the hell took them so long man? Had a sip of the spicy soup and omg, never had I eaten such terrible thing (This might be a bit exeggerating but yeah it's just an expression so bear with me ok?). The soup was spicy, and yes I love spice, but tasteless. So stupid right? They just add spice into the soup and that's it. GEEZ. I could still bear with it though, cause maybe it's just different style of cooking compared to Malaysia's soup. So yeah we finished eating for the first round of food and then we continued ordering more and it bloody took ages again. I wonder what were they doing in the kitchen. They're just so slowwww, and I don't understand why're there still so many people eating in that shop. Cheap I guess? 18 dollars per pax eat all you can. We saw another table full of locals (the aussies) and a man lookedp issed off. He was walking near the counter and asked one of the workers there if it's 60 dollars, he just left the money on the counter and wanted to leave. I heard him saying "I'm sorry but WE ARE IN A HURRY, so I'm just gonna leave the money here OK!?" Before he left the stingy boss-who-only-hired-2-girls rushed out and shouted "SIXTY DOLLARS!" She looked pretty anxious, worried that the table of people would leave without paying. The man answered:" It's ON THE COUNTER!" and he left.

Then the boss kept quiet and checked the money.

& people continued eating. And the mushroom with I ordered didn't even come =(

Not going there anymore!  That was unsatisfied. I felt full but I think it was pretty fake cause once I got back home I felt like eating some real food. Stomach felt funny anyway, must be the chilis. Aunt felt the same way and uncle was looking for food again. Stupid peking steamboat..

Ok this is a long ass post and I haven't done this for quite a while. Well, I'm a super free person you see. So okay I need to think now; whether to go to Melb today or tomorrow.

off.

Watched the game at Telstra Dome again. It was better than last week's I suppose. Anyhoo, I supported St Kilda and they didn't win. =(

Have to treat bf for karaoke tomorrow, waaaa~~!

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So as I was walking to the Melbourne Aquarium today I saw posters.. Dashboard Confessional will be having a show in St Kilda!! 8th of September!! :D :D

52 bucks is pretty reasonable I guess!

And I just found out that The Strokes is here too!! But when I checked the info online, tickets are not on sale!! WHY!?

Gig's on the 6th of Aug. Whichs NOW. BUMMER!!

It's okay. Nvm then. Save up some money at least, heh.

(typing in the dark sucks.)

Oh... Aquarium was pretty fun too! and this monster fish is just too cute!

 Smiling all the way! This is the small one, the bigger one is like the size of 5 human heads.

So cute

Venue: Somewhere in St Kilda along the beach

Time: 5pm-ish

Theme: Pretty sunset

Fact: Sunset in the picture captured below is definitely not as beautiful as it's seen on the spot.

ahh.

Because I'm down with an influenza and wasabi cures nose blocks! Not very heavy though cause I don't have fever or aches, just catarrh, and of course I don't want it to turn out to be worse, just hate being sick. I was healthy.. But bf spread the virus to me. Bummer. Okay better not talk bout it, dont wanna get jinxed. >.<

I guess it's time for me to look for a part time job or something here cause I'm overspending! (Yet again...) What to do, things are expectedly expensive here, plus I don't really have much to do so a job suits me best =) . Problem is that if there's anyone who would hire me, gaha. I'm so looking forward to the French course which I enroled the other day. My my.. Not only Dashboard Confessional is coming to town but also the All American-Rejects. Damn! Gotta love big cities! Can't wait to go, and some musical operas are up too so yes~! Am lovin' it!

I need to go to Thailand. It's just so fun.

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Bf's dad came down to melb so we had dinner at Crown. His dad has always liked to order lobster whenever we eat outside so it's no surprise that there's a huge lobster served on our table just now. Delicious yes.. But I think I prefer those big ass prawns, as in HUGE prawns which are NOT lobsters.

Why?

Cause lobster meat is not as chewable as prawn's and part of the meat, as in when the piece of lobster flesh is chewed and those tiny parts, always stuck in between the gaps of my teeth! Like now, it's been there for 4 frigging hours already and it ain't gonna come out until I bother to go get a toothpick and yknow, dig it out.

Enough of the lobster story, heh.

French course is starting in 3 days' time and I hope it's gonna turn out well. BETTER turn out well man. Anyhoo, The other day I chatted with my bro randomly on MSN and he's still being a gay man, as in the jovial person. Very randomly he told me "I'm gonna go get some greens now for cooking. Call me ok? I'll be expecting for your call." (Crappy as always. No way he's gonna talk as polite as this to me in real life, but I love this crappy bro because he NEVER fails to make me laugh all the time, even just a few words on MSn.) So yeah, I gave him a call cause I still had credit on my phone which I had to finish up before 20th of Aug, free credit heh. He told me that he's gonna return to Msia at the end of the year from London and he asked me to go there and look for him before I start college. Oh well, my actual plan was going to Thailand and S'pore or maybe HK but now.. HmmmmmmmMm. Euro trip sounds much more interesting isn't it? =D Hopefully bf can fork out some time for me and go there to look for me as well haha. Okay, nvm. Nothing's confirmed anyway, might turn out staying in Ipoh for 3 months. HA.. Can't let that happen!!

I wanna go to Mt Buller or any other snow mountains and ski ski ski! Dammit, everyone who's in Melb has been telling me REPEATEDLY how FUN skiing BLOODY is and even my AUNT who doesn't normally have a lotta activities TELLS ME THAT TOO. and I HAVEN'T tried. so yes, I WANNA GO SKIING TOO. I don't care if I sound like a pathetic desperado but yeah, I wanna go to snow mountains just for the sake of it!!of skiing!

Guess I'll have the chance.. another month for winter.

No wait, OMG. Less than a month till Spring! Less than a month left for winter! Proscrastination is like so common between me and.. everyone around me especially bf? So one month is a SHORT period of time. I better be quick, urgh.

I really do sound pathetic now.. Mehh.

I have a feeling that I'm not gonna make it for skiing anyway, boo.

Mmm, am munching on this Raffaello white choc thingy; Crisp coconut specialty with whole almond centre, AHH. Not cheap anyway, and I had to pay for it. It's worth it though.

French class starts tomorrow! Am feeling a bit awkward, no idea why. Prolly cause I haven't attended any classes for almost a year already (although SPM was in Nov '05 but one month before we already stopped going to school so yeahhhh..) and yeah, I feel like a kid who's going to attend her first high school class. My class is in the evening starting from 6pm which means... A night class! Better be good.. Bf's damn busy lately because his assignments, essays and the upcoming exams are piled up and that poor darling is right now struggling with his accounting work. Wonder if he can make it or not -.- but I think he's a smart ass anyway cause practically during the first semester he never studied and was always talking to me no matter on MSN or on the phone and yettttt, he managed to pass all his subjects and not just a pass but also some h2bs or something like that. Uuuu.. I'm gonna make him a first class honour student nyahahaha! (As if I'm THAT influencial, ha. Well as a freshman as long as he passes everything then it's good enough. As for the final year.. He really should behave like a nerd already.)

I stayed at the apartment for the whole day today! Menstruation is up and as usual I'm suffering from the cramp every first day of it, uh. Sucks to be a woman. Well actually except for the period bit I'm totally fine with being one. I grilled some steaks today and they turned out well =D Despite the fact that it was a bit too salty, prolly cause of the fire was too strong and the sauce just got thickened up. Medium rare is always the best. I'm slowly falling in love with the kitchen because I like to eat so much that I have to learn cooking ha. I prefer cooking at my own home though because pans and woks are the most terrible things to be washed and the maid should settle that. no maids here =( Anyhoo, I slept on and off and the cramp remained.

Speaking of food, bf and I had been to mose of the Asian restaurants here and uh, he has yet to bring me to Lygon st. Hmz! I was cheated by one of the Thai restaurants here anyway. As a Tom Yum addict I find it obvious that the tom yum that I had the other day wasn't done professionally. No spice, not much of Tom Yum taste and what's worse was that there were beancurds in it. NOBODY APPLIES BEAN CURDS IN GOOD TOM YUM! ok so yeah it was a bit sweetish too so yes, sucky sucky. I've been eating so many types of tom yum here that bf's surrendering. Everywhere I go whenever theres tom yum i'll definitely order that and everytime, I leave the restaurant with great disappointment. Ok ok I can choose not to be too picky and hey, can anyone just tell me where in this city will there be a hella SPICY tom yum? Um, I haven't gone to all of the Thai restaurants yet anyway so yeah, there's still hope. Ok I sound like a desperate person who's craving for Tom yum so much.

Went to this SzeChuan Restaurant yesterday at Chinatown and mmm! I loved the spice! Haven't had anything like that in a while already and honestly speaking, the food there was pretty good. However, everything costs so much here. I think we're overspending on food, like.. seriously. But hey, indulging in food is one of the greatest things to do in life isn't it?

Anyway, target for this Friday is one of the Italian restaurants along Lygon St!

Oh yeah, the All American Rejects concert is up too. Yeah baby.

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I like my French class!

And so I thought I was being late when I rushed to the tram station at 5.35pm(Class started at 6pm). Tried validating my metcard but urgh, the expiry date wouldn't show and Blah, for the very first time I was checked by the inspector for the ticket after a month (well everyone tells me that inspectors do go around and check for tickets to prevent people from taking free rides.). I do skip validating my ticket sometimes, so anyway.. There were a few trams along Swanton so I picked the one with the fewest people. Not long after I sat down (validated card but it's not printed) i saw 2 women with uniforms and they were checking on a girl in front of me. Poor thing, I bet she didn't have a ticket so yeah, 200 dollars penalty dudeeeee. Then the woman came and ask for the ticket and I told her what happened. She looked at me and i bet I looked pretty suspicious, so anyway she told me that she's gonna try validating my card and if it can be printed, shiit, gone case, she was gonna launch a report.

The heart says:

"Mofo... If the machine works fine now I'm gonna kill myself and.. RAWR... *although I knew I didn't lie but omg the heart was pounding really rapidly*"

I can't be THAT bad luck isn't it!?

The sound of the validating machine interfered me and I looked at the inspector blindly,

"Oh alright the card was indeed validated. Well if another inspector comes to you just tell him that the ink for the machine ran out and yeah, you'll be fine. Thank you =) "

PHHHEEWWWWWW. I wasn't having tough luck afterall! But yeah, I did what I was supposed to do so yes, lucky lucky cause the inspector checked on me when I actually validated the card! Many times when I didn't validate it I was always anxious, afraid that someday it might be my turn to pay the 200 dollars penalty. oh well.

Dragging on the metcard story for a bit too long. Anyhow, yup French class started 15 minutes late anyway, and next door was having this drum lesson which was such a apin in the butt as the French teacher had to talk real loud. So okay my french teacher's name is Julie Alamasse and there's a pretty heavy french accent when she speaks English gaha. The girl sitting on my left happened to be a Malaysian and she's taking 2nd year of commerce in Melb U, from PJ. On my right it's Imegen and I took quite a while to remember her name. She's a local medicine student, what a smart ass. So yup we all talked during lesson and French's COMPLICATED. Like for example, Comment vous appelez-vous, it's actually pronounced as Common Vuz a peh leh vu. When she first started to speak all this it drove me nuts! I have a serious problem for pronounciation but ah, I'm gonna learn anyway. Oh btw comment vous appelez-vous means What's your name.

French's the 11th most spoken language in the world. I was in between Spanish and French before I made up my mind and sign up for French but um, although Spanish's the 2nd most spoken language but I figured it might not be as useful. That's just what I think, so yeah.. If i was given a chance I'd love to learn Spanish as well, being able to speak in different languages is such a cool thing =D .

Learnt some numbers, and French's pretty much like Eng so i just need a lotta practice. As in.. A HELL LOT.

Imegen and I walked to the library together as she's on her way to the exit and Victor's been waiting for me in the lib for 2 hours as well. However for some reasons we argued andd.. That was sad. Pity him for chasing me along the long street whilst holding a cup of soft drink and also a packet of KFC and he had to RUN cause according to him I walk realllly fast. No dinner for me =( He was dumb because when I said I didn't want chicken while he was getting some for himself, he believed that I DIDN'T want chicken. Omg, No way man, So much for understanding me. Eventually I got more pissed off at him and I just kept walking, after getting back it was already 9.50pm and uh, I was starving already. My last meal was at 2! And then I continued to lock myself up in the room lied on the bed for 2 hours. Thinking of silly things and then thought of crying to bed but failed because I seriously was so hungry. Okay I admit that i was being dumb cause I wanted to hold on to my ego and eat only if he brings the food in. Well actually I cancelled the idea after half an hour and I really wanted to sleep. But how to sleep with such shitty mood?! On and off he would come in and tried to calm me down but he just didn't get to the point, RAWR. BAD ATTEMPT. At frigging last he made tom yum for me, err, and it was in the oven soaked with soup for about one and a half hour cause one and a half hour ago I was still mad. So yeah u can imagine how soft the noodles were. Such bad dinner =( And i actually planned to make lamb chops if we didnt have a fight. Hm =

We had a talk this afternoon, and I could hear the sound of two broken hearts.

Long distance is shit. C'est de la mende! [It means shitty lol, i'm addicted to french and i'm not sorry]

So very quickly we had another talk and we made things up.

And then I realised..

I'm actually so bloody in love =S

GOOSEBUMP? HAHA.

So anyway, I'm in a jolly mood again. Gonna make a cup of hot chocolate now, laters.

I'd been out for 10 hours straight today and surprisingly I don't feel tired, in fact, I can still feel a bit of energy inside me. Oh well.. =|

[Crown's shooting fire again.. pretty. =) ! ]

Anyhow, for the first few hours I was all by myself around the city. Since the season's switching, there's clearance everywhere and all the clothings are getting real cheap. For a cotton coat the original price was roughly 60 plus dollars and um, I got it for 30. Many more sales and the last days are approaching. However, the shopping spree is eating up my wallet and I'm spending so much. Doesn't matter anyway because I don't usually spend a lot on clothes so it's a once in a blue moon thing.

Went to Melb Central to exchange a white coat which I bought yesterday cause the button was out. Walked around aimlessly and enjoyed seeing people, as in many people, walking around the streets. Street shows add on colours for this city view and ahh, I just love musicians playing music in the heart of the city. They make the atmosphere so much better. And then I saw these two smart and adorable dogs, they were barking along when the owner played certain parts of songs, TOO CUTE. Unfortunately, they were across the street and i didn't bother to go all the way up to put some money in the guitar case.  After which, Victor who was playing basketball with friends said to have lunch together at Chinatown so okay. Had yum cha at Dragon Boat restaurant, and then he continued with basketball at Monash and I had to walk around all alone again, which wasn't that bored after all.

Topped up my phone and geez, my 20 dollars free credit was gone because it expired yesterday and I thought it's supposed to be today. So yeah I got 3 times extra credit so I called most of my friends like Jin, Vern and Gabby but Gabby wouldn't pick up her phone, biatchhh. What's pretty shocking is, there're rumours saying that I'm bloody getting married, a HUGE wtf. Before the phone calls Vern already told me bout this, and then during the phone convo this afternoon, what I find even crazier's..

Me: Now tell me who told you that I'm getting married huh?

Vern: I don't know.. XXXX's Mum! The mum's friends!

Me: WHAT!? They're WOMEN. And Do I even know them!?

Vern: HAHA yeah that's why i almost thought it's real! HAHAHA

Me: OMG? LOL, and I don't even know them! Well are you SURE?

Vern: XXXX texted me the other day asking me if that's true!

Me: BONKERS.

Very... speechless. Do I sound like I'm married!?

And I always state BF, not HUBBY, and Ive never said Hubby in this blog before. Ok nevermind, I'm just being a bit too curious now. No biggie =D

That's funny anyway. Vern's wondering when will people start saying that I'm pregnant, urgh.

I wanna faint.

Oh.. after having lunch and walking around, I went to a chinese restaurant in Chinatown which's called Fortuna Village to pay an uncle a visit. He's dad's childhood friend and my dad thought it'd be nice if i could make an effot to go look for him and send regards. Yknow, the usual manners thing. Had a 2-hour talk, boy that was pretty long isn't it? But yeah it's my benefit cause he's told me alot bout almost everything. Like from how to manage a restaurant to how to find a good place to look for a house and etc etc. Nice man! So yes uncle Jim was asking me to have dinner at his restaurant but I had to go as I had another appoinment with bf and co.

Might visit the club which his nephew owns someday. Platform One, a club along flinders.

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Had dinner at Sante, Crown. So full. Am craving for Boost's Mango Green Tea.. I want boost..

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[Very randomly I walked to 7-eleven with Christine because she craved for Sarsi. and there wasn't any sarsi, so it's bad. So i'm having peach green tea now mm.]

Veronica             &            Rachelle

Choose one.

Or maybe Veronique too.

And don't ask why, just don't.

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From now onwards I think I wanna add some colours to my blog, and uh.. I don't mean I'm gonna edit the layout or something cause HTML is complicated and I can't really be arsed to figure it out. So yes I might just wanna start changing my text's colour .

& then, I NEED A JOB. because I'm overspending, and this is what we call negative income. I spent a few hundred in just a few days and that's so not cool. Tram tickets are pain the butt because the price's frigging high and what's worse's that the apartment along Bourke street is a place which you wanna bitch about SO MUCH because the distance's like.. literally, TOO FAR and seemingly a bit TOO NEAR sometimes. Conclusion is, you walk, it's bloody far; you take the tram, it's so near that it doesn't seem to worth the tram tickets'money. Yknow why? cause streets in Melb are SO LONG. okay so the apartment along Bourke st is at the end of it and to get to the city you walk like 20 to 25 minutes, depends on your pace; and taking trams takes about 5 minutes. Therefore, most of the time I get so undecisive, thinking whether to walk or take trams. However, sometimes it gets sooo frustrating because when you go on a tram and you start to think if you should validate the metcard or not. If you don't, you feel all uneasy and paranoid and thinking that every single one like the old women or even a punk might be an inspector who might just come upon you and say:

"Ticket please!"

And then it's the end of the world because penalty causes such major depression. BUT!!!, even if you do something legal like once you get on the tram you validate the metcard straight away and be cool all the way, in the end when you get down you'll start thinking, "Shit, wasn't even worth the validation. Damn.. shouldn't have validated.." so and so. and then start the bitching all over again, the too far yet too near distance bit, and then you get bloody regret and you feel like punching yourself in the face or something, and then the next thing you do is cursing the aussie government for selling expensive metcards. Mmhmm, this is life.  These two scenarios, Im in between. Speaking of balancing, but after my 2nd thought, I think I was always being paranoid and until one day when the inspector finally checked my ticket after so long, I started getting even more paranoid and that made me to validate my tickets all the time. Rawr.

Okay so this is just one the reasons which makes me broke. C'mon, 27 dollars for a 10 times 2 hourly ticket, and i finish it in like a week or maybe less. To get a monthly ticket it's 100 effing dollars. Daily ticket, 7! OKAY this is so depressing so I guess I'm gonna be optimistic, cheating to myself thinking that from now onwards I'm gonna start walking my fat off by avoid taking trams. AS IF.

And wow, I didn't realise the complaints for high living cost in the city would take up one third of this entry. So anyway, I have to top up my mobile credit too. Fair enough cause I'm taking this Turbo Charge plan so I get like either 3 or 5 times more of credit whenever I top up. Have to finish in a month's time though, so yeah having international calls is kinda like my latest entertainment besides watching excessive honkin series.

WINTER CLEARANCE IS ON. Signs with the big word "SALES!" are everywhere! 60% 80% OFF everywhere! Bf complained that I showed no interest in clothes at all (I hope he wasn't trying to imply that - no fashion sense in me, gah.), which's kinda true(not the fashion senseless part =)! ), and I think I'm trying to show him that there's still some feminine side in me by buying CLOTHES. Well seriously I felt like I had nothing to wear too because I brought so many coats and sweaters and yet no shirts, whichs bummer. Even the leather coat which I brought over, I guess I wore it a million times before I bought 3 new ones recently. So yes.. I'm challenging my own wealth by daring myself to get into shops with SALES. 30 dollars is a fair enough price but a few 30 dollars equals to hundreds! Okie..  

FOOD. It's cold and nobody should blame me for me huge appetite! So when I walk around, Subways or Boost or Bubblecup or whichever shops with snacks like wraps attract me all the time. A few or a few dollars become a pretty big amount isn't it? And I have nil income! I'm pretty addicted to wraps nowadays and I can't make them myself so.. Same goes to Boost juice. So in love with Mango Green Tea lately. Oh yeah, chocolates cost bomb too (not talking bout those cheapskate chocs) and I'm a chocolate loverrrr. Every now and then I wanna munch on it and this is gonna shrink my wallet once again.

The world is real and the people are realistic. Money is the key and actually I don't know what I'm trying to express now. You get the picture anyway, I'm just overspending. Therefore, I need a job =) To spend time in a much more useful away and also to earn necessary cash, not extra cash anymore, ha. I don't want parents to send money anymore either cause it's not like what they've given's not enough but it's just ME. ME ME ME.

$_$ !

Do I sound like I'm such a desperado for money? Well I can't live without it but yeah I can still survive without jobs. I wanna earn because.. I wanna feel secured. =D

And what's with people who still think that I'm getting married man!? This is just bonkers! Right now I'm very damned sure that at least for the next 5 years I won't(!) be getting married, and not getting pregnant applies to the not-gonna-happen list as well. Goodness. Okay I sound so angry, I'm not actually. I just find it hilarious and amusing. *Raises eyebrow* I'm not even 18 and rumours say I'm saying goodbye to my singlehood. The world is indeed as crazy as me now. Gaha. Maybe I'm just sucha sudden person that people think that I might just get married suddenly, or maybe having babies in a sudden. Err.. what bout.. suddenly dead? *touches and rubs wood real hard* Just a statement, no biggie. The world is beautiful and I'm loving it so I ain't gonna leave it so soon cause it would be sucha waste.

Alright, enough of nonsense for today! Off for bed now!

I hadn't done this for quite some time already and it felt pretty damn awesome! I slept for 15 hours straight and that's so me!

Since there wasn't much to do in Geelong, I managed to sleep from bout 1am right till 4pm, which means I only got to catch the sun for 2 hours, that's such a waste of time and also sunny day buy hey, at least I was feeling all good. I can't do that in Melb, first of all bf is not capable of doing so; and then how would bf's mum view me if I really slept in for hours even when she's there? Pressure!! The latest hour which I got up in Melb's like.. 12? And that's VERY LATE already.

The internet was down yesterday, uncle and Brian were busy fixing it but apparently it didn't work. Optus system was down, uh. That was sad, I could only watch telly. Dvds to be precise.  I've finished 15 episodes already, not in one day though. Anyway my 2nd lesson for French is later this evening so I'm back to Melb once again. Nothing new, I'm always running two sides.

Late at night when I had nothing to do, I flipped through my diary and then I realised that time's moving so bloody fast until i found it pretty scary. Geez, last week was just like the day when Melb was still summer and I was hanging out with Monn Monn, and had drinks at Max Brenner. Yesterday was just like the day when i knew Victor and Christine and.. So many of just-like-the-days! I bitched soooo much about national service when I was in the dumb camp and omg, it's been 4 months since I left NS already! & alsooo, I can't really believe that it's going to be 3 months since I went to China in June!

Can someone please stop the time for a while? Or maybe invent some machines which make everything goes in a slow motion.

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Kid me not. I can't imagine myself attending my children's wedding ceremonies. It is going to and will happen, yknow, when you're thinking that: nah it's not happening so soon. POOF! There you go, you're a granny of god knows how many grandchildren now!

I remember when I was still in primary school, I asked myself: When will I get to drive like my sister? When will I get to have total freedom like my bro who's leaving high school? When will I be having to sit for my SPM? When will..

All these happened already.

So scary isn't it?

I've come up with all these and then I should know that time's limited so I should be making full use of it but hey.. I slept for 15 hours =D Half of my day is spent in dreamland. Ahhhhh. Joyyyy.

Speaking of high school, I think I'm missing it, for a bit. The days when I used to eat a lotta food during classes and also reaching school at 10.15am, which's 5 minutes before recess. What I'm missing the most is, the days when I used to talk so much with the girl who sat next to me. She was my height too and we happened to come from the same primary school. I remember when I was being dumb that I cried over the so called ex bfs, she's there beside me, doing what a girlfriend should do like cursing the so called ex :p Together with another pal as well, we would just tell everything out to everyone, even the tiny bits of things that've been happening in your daily life, what you were not satisfied about, complaints that you couldn't find anyone else to burst to, those girls were always there by my side, and vice versa. I now realise the cons of growing up, you don't cry in front of your friends anymore. Well you might but how often? Once a year? After you get dumped by a long term relationship bf? When I was in high school, classmates were always there to lend you their shoulders and that's just so awesome. Further more, we were merely best friends in class. That's the weird part. We got along so well in class but we never bothered to hang out with each other outside school, or even outside the class. During recess, very automatically we would search for our own gangs and then that's it. That's the thing, sometimes you find a really true friend in a certain field, but in the end, she/he might not be the one who's with you 24/7. Okay I'm bringing this up in a pretty blurry way but I hope you get what I mean. So yes, just good friends in class, and secrets told in class, remained in class. Because when I told a secret, there's no reason for them to tell it off to the people in their own circles of friends because it's not like they cared? Whereas when you're just with this group of friends, and you tell one of them a secret, the posibility for secret leakage is much higher, and it's gonna stay inside this circle, and then that's not a secret anymore.

The sad part is, right after high school, or maybe after separated from different classes, we lost touch.

This is life isn't it? I don't seem to get to find the really right person to talk about everything anymore. The bunch of girlfriends that I'm close to are all having their own lifes now, and that's not something bad anyway. I have my own life too. Therefore I said, these are the consequences that you have to face as a grow-up.

I'm not trying to imply that I'm very matured anyway =D Although the fact that I'm turning 18 is approaching soon. Ok, now I wonder.. is 18 considered as a teenager? Or an adult already?

But I'm very sure that, I'M GONNA BE LEGAL SOON.

xD

Um, I don't feel like writing suddenly. So laters..

Am trying to see what's the effect after choosing the background colour and pfft.. Thought it'd be something more interesting like the whole page would turn blue or something like that. See see, it's just highlight. BOOOO!

So okay. Last night after my french class, bf came over to Union House and looked for me and then we went to Lygon Street to get dinner. That was my first time there anyway! =D So okay, there were too many restaurants around and we had no frigging clue which would be the best one with the best food. And boy, the waiters and waitresses were damn hardworking and dedicated I must say, they were literally trying to grab customers instead of just promoting their foods. What's more interesting's that, a few of the restaurants were doing this free drinks thing and unfortunantely, we didn't get into those. The waiters and waitresses would stand outside of the restaurants and grab anyone who's passing by.

"C'mon.. Tell me now, do you take alcohol?"

"Um, not today.."

"Oh c'monnnn! Free alcohol today! you don't drink alcohol? We have juice! Free, on the house, c'monnnn!"

We quickly walked away, and then another waitress grabbed my hand and kinda "forced" me to have a look at the menu.

"We have free drinks! And garlic breads are on the house. C'mon in!!"

Goodness gracious me. We hurrily walked away again. Gosh, they seriously made people feel slightly guilty man, although there's no reason to be guilty of.

At last, we spotted a pretty beautiful place called La Speghatta (If I'm not mistaken). Decided to dine there. The heaters were being darlings! Last night was cold you see. However after a while I got a bit too warm so I had to ask the waitress to turn it down for a bit. Had 3 types of pasta and we were effing full.

Lovely mixed pasta! There were speghetti, lasgne and fettucine. Loved the fettucine, didn't quite like the lasagne cause it was a bit too sour. One big plate of pasta and two people couldn't really finish it. I even thought of getting steak before the food came  Well luckily that idea was cancelled after hearing bf said that the portion was gonna be pretty huge.

After a while, WHEE! Finished!

I'd never been so happy before after finishing up food. Well too much pasta indeed makes ur stomach feel a bit upset. Urgh.

The food wasn't too bad afterall =D . The price was even more fantastic! It's about.. 20 dollars for a plate. As for steaks, 40 dollars for one? Fantastic isn't it!? (And if you really think that I think that the price is fantastic, I'm telling you now that I think it's frigging expensive.) Ahh, it's Lygon after all.

When we were walking back, the waitress who earlier on came upon us, approached me when she saw us walking by. Yet again, she grabbed my hand. Looking all miserable as if she got fired and she asked:"Tell me girl.. Which restaurant did you go? Which did you go!?"

 I hoped she wouldn't kill me.

We had to 'cool her down' by telling her that we're gonna get back to her restaurant the next time we go there. She looked satisfied by then. Oh wow. Not a local anyway, italian maybe? Since it's lygon street haha.

And then we had to walk back to Swanston St for trams because we didn't know which tram to take. Anyway, speaking of tram, I got checked by the inspector again yesterday! So now I guess every Wednesday there'd be inspectors around Swanstons so beware! And luckily enough for me, I validated my card again =D So it's all good.

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Am trying to update my iPod now and DAMMIT. I HATE ERRORS. Fucking iTunes is always so complicated and also frigging troublesome. RAWRRRR!! Screw Apple. Ipod is so not cool, even normal Mp3 players are better. Idiota! Very randomly I lost thousand over songs from my iPod, shit.

And now, can anyone tell me what to do when there's an unknown error? Restart?

grrrrrr.

pfff...

It's getting really cold today after one or two weeks of comfortable weather. It rained! And I see mist when I was on the balcony. Ahh. Have to go to city later to meet up with Victor, Hmmm~! Better put on more clothes!

[I think my iTunes is working fine now, what a weird program, that bitch  ]

Bought a new wallet from Guess!

So I was walking randomly in QV with bf and spontaneously we just stepped into the Guess shop. Saw many new and nice wallets; looked at my own old wallet; urgh..

Told myself: "Ok, just buy one lah."

Yippy ya ya.

It's just Guess so okay I know it's no biggie. But I bought it during the time when I needed cash the most! So.. Pardon me for the excitement

Time to say goodbye to my old DKNY now. Nyahahaha!

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Btw last night after grocery shopping we took a tram back. Talking talking talking on the tram.. All of a sudden an old man appeared and after having a clearer look on his costumes, omigawd it's the inspector!

I was all calm though. Because.. I validated my card =D =D =D !! Sooo lucky! 3 times being checked by the inspectors in a fortnight, I wasn't caught red handed at all! Seriously, Thank God!

However, when I was all steady, I could hear bf saying:

"Shittttt......"

? I thought he was carrying the daily metcard? dammit.

He looked at me blankly. I was holding a stack of cards, including the validated metcard of mine. So, when the inspector turned around to check for other passengers' tickets, I SUPER SWIFTLY took out another metcard of mine and hissed: "Validate it now! Quick!"

"Taak tak tak tak... (the sound of validation from the machine)"

Inspector turned back, we smiled at him [something like this kinda smile -->  ] and showed him those two metcards.

PHEWWWWWWWWWW!!!!

Safe!!

So bloody thrilled!!

太刺激啦!!真的是有心脏病的都会被他吓死!!

Felt like typing Chinese so.. =)

off.

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I AM LEGAL NOW!!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! (only in Aus though..  Will still be a kid back in M'sia, pfffft..)

THANKS FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAY WISHES ANYWAY! HUGS AND KISSES! Love you guys!!

I can't really believe that I've been chatting on MSN for 3 hours! Geez, it's been sucha bloody long time since I last did that with yknow, like 3 to 4 people in one chat room, and it's filled with sheer NONSENSE! And it's actually very fun cause you laugh so hard, but it's a bummer cause it's the middle of the night and I can't make any noise, even the slightest noise cause this apartment's sound proof system is too gay (gayness applies to most of the houses as well).

Was checking out my old MSN account and found out that I really am losing so many contacts. Mofo. Wonder how did they disappear, apaprently I didnt delete those contacts right. Alas I had to add in more and more contacts. All my long lost friends when I was in high school.

About 2 years back or so, I used to think that certain boys schools' guys were so el A em ee. Okay, now 2 years later, when I was looking back at those testimonials in Friendster, I'm starting to miss those el A em ee-ness. Haven't spoken to them for at least a year and boy, it was so fun talking to them just now, together with a few of my close fiends whom we used to tease them together, tee hee. Those were the days!! I have to accept the fact that I'M MISSING IPOH. Home is still home, no matter how bad the place is. All these years, the good food back there was the thing which kept me moving otherwise I so would have.. Umm.. Ok so even there wasn't any good food I'd still have to deal with it because I didn't have any support to move out of Ipoh. Well, at least it's improving slowwwwwwly. Aight? Albeit I doubt that I'm gonna settle down there in the future. There'll be a chance, but it's just too thin.

My birthday celebration was alright, however I wasn't satisfied because it's an 18th birthday! Ha, do you get me? It doesn't feel like an 18-year-old's birthday celebration if your closest buds aren't there to get crazy and drunk with you and also you need to party out like at least 3 days continuously (ok this is a bit exaggerating). You get the picture anyway. So I guess I'd have to re-celebrate it when I get my arse back to M'sia in order to fulfil my lust! Whoopsie daisy.

I liked the blackforest cake which I had. I liked the bracelet which Christine gave me, it looks like Tiffany's although it's not, and nobody's gonna ask you if you're wearing a Tiffany when you wear that Tiffany-look-alike out so I'm hearting it. Some cash from Aunt, an expensive dinner from uncle (If it really was meant for me, if it's not the case I'd still greet thank you cause I ate.).

I went to torquoy on my birthday anyway. Nothing much to do there, it's winter c'mon. And thank you Lord because I was blessed with a really sunny day and the weather was wayyy too comfortable for a beach view! Sun was shining brightly and there're so many doggies being walked along the beach. Dogs are the sweetest animals ever. Took some pictures and I liked them so much, the sunlight added on awesome effect for the pics. Can't be bothered to upload em now but the usericon which I'm using for this post is one of the pictures taken that day. Oh, uncle lent Victor his car. My uncle is surely courageous for doing so because Victor's a noob in driving. Well he's not that noobish after all but he's only gotten his license like two days before. Cheerios.

Present from him was.. An 18ct white gold diamond pendant. It's a heel. That cost him a bomb and the pendant didn't look that worthy. However, that's indeed very sweet of him and yeah, I thought he didn't get me anything beforehand so bite me for blaming him the day before.

I think I need to repeat that it's a PENDANT and not a ring, just in case there're rumours saying that I'm engaged  . Urgh.

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On the other hand, adults are driving me bonkers.

I just wanna live a life I want and not caring about what others would comment on you and shit. This world is just a huge piece of turd and that's very ugly. It's beautiful only when you don't have to fake like almost everything and be original. I'm not perfect but I think it'd be nice if someone understands what I'm doing and what I'm upto; and not being judged, being talked behind like how bad I behave and etc. I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING. And I'm sorry if I've embarassed you because I didn't know that's the case and all I'm trying to do is to patch things up which is hard for me cause I don't effing know what you actually want.

This is so complicated and nobody's gonna understand this. You don't have to cause I just wanna yell out what've been hiding deep down inside me. I never thought I'd write out about how I feel in this blog but hey, I need to burst at least something out to feel better. The pressure is eating me up and that's not very healthy.

And also, I think it's so unfair to judge someone by its cover. Please stop complaining about others when you're not the perfect one. You're not majesty, you're just an ordinary person. House chores are meant for women, not a girl like me (NOT LIKE I DONT DO HOUSE CHORES GAWDAMMIT). I love sleeping till the sun shines on my butt and that's LIFE. I love eating how much and what I want and thats ENJOYMENT. I love being me. I ain't gonna fake things like forcing myself to get up at 7am in the morning and enjoy the morning fresh air. You breathe when you're sleeping so I ain't missing out fresh air EVERY MORNING. RAWRRRRR!! Oh yes, has anyone told you that sometimes your harsh words might actually hurt many people? You don't say it on purpose, I know, but hey, maybe you should try using better words and think twice before you blab everything out. Nobody likes being insulted in front of many people, although it looks like a whoops-i'm-not-doing-this-on-purpose, deep down inside, people do mind ok? So far I'm lucky enough to not being talked bad by you in front of public, 'accident'ally.

So many complaints, my heart is yelling for help. They've been in me for quite some time and I think I'm collapsing if I dont let them out for a bit. And I'm gonna continue being a loser by trying to stand all these unsatisfactions for like, let's say, a few more weeks?

It feels better to let things out, I'm not specifying who these people are for an apparent reason. I don't want people to know that is, so quit guessing as well if you care. 

ALSO,

Instead of lacking confidence in a relationship, might as well just call it off. BOO!

It is gonna be hard but I am too used to this kinda pain.

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This is life isn't it? Of ups and downs. From the very first place, paradise has never really existed in this realistic world. I once thought it's near and OH! EUREKA!

It's just a dream.

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Am lying on the bed now, going online with the laptop.

Suddenly, I hear voices. People talking..

And the voices are getting louder, and clearer.

Girl and guy talking.. What the hell?

I'm on the 17th floor!

Voices getting nearer and nearer,

I wonder where do they come from.

I look at the window.

OH.

I see people cleaning the windows. Whooptidoo.

Scared me

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